As a child, I read myself to sleep every night. This habit continued throughout my teenage years and college. It was infuriating to suddenly lose that.
I found myself unable to focus. I had to reread paragraphs over and over because my brain would refuse to process the text. By the next night, I couldn’t remember anything… leaving me stuck perpetually in chapter 1.
At every opportunity, every quiet moment, my mind would kick into high gear. Panicking about all I hadn’t accomplished in my life and questioning my ability to accomplish anything in the future. I eventually gave up trying to read and opted to leave the TV on until it lulled me to sleep. Years went by.
Fast forward to today. My mind and expectations are thankfully in a much calmer state, so I finally started reading books again.
It was a struggle. I could focus, but reading felt slow and insipid. I had difficulty imagining things in my mind, and I wondered if I had a distorted memory of reading… Maybe it’d never been as fun as I remembered?
I stubbornly continued to fight my way through a book… And behoooold… the mental agility (can we call it that?) that you exercise while reading started to return. Pretty soon, within a few weeks, books again became enthralling and fast-paced.
Reading is the most delicious hobby I know. Delicious… haha. I can’t think of a better word. But it creates a great, rich feeling of satisfaction that’s both entertaining and educational.
I wanted to share this in case any of you guys out there miss reading, too. 🙂 Just to let you know getting back into the habit may take a little effort, but it’s worth it!
And to end this, I’ll leave you with a quote from a book I read recently <–wooooo! called Lexicon, by Max Barry. I loved the book. This quote is completely unrelated to the topic of the post… but it’s the kind of sentence that has always inspired me to look for similes and metaphors when writing lyrics.
“If you never smiled or laughed or frowned, she could believe that this was the kind of face you wound up with, smooth and empty as an undisturbed pond.”
Barry, Max (2013-06-18). Lexicon: A Novel (p. 142). Penguin Group US. Kindle Edition.