I spent more than half of my World of Warcraft days playing damage dealing characters. I was never great at it, but I didn’t mind. The game was fun anyway, and I was happy following my friends around, carefree, doing mediocre damage.
When most of these friends left WoW, I started playing battlegrounds because I was too shy (/chicken) to join random dungeons. I did what I could to help my team, yet watched with indifference whenever I got my ass kicked. Even with a Ret Pally my stats didn’t compare to everyone else’s, so instead of running up bravely to enemies, I started using what healing spells I had to help others who were better than me. Eventually, curiosity led me to switch my pally to Holy and… man.
This was the coolest thing to go through. After a long time of playing with this feeling of “whatever, I suck, I’ll do what I can,” I was suddenly full of adrenaline and a surprising attitude of “Leeeaaave no maaan behiiiind”. I didn’t want ANYBODY to die EVER. It was an intense determination that felt out of character for my insecure gaming self. I loved every second of it.
I’m sure I still wasn’t what you’d consider “good” at WoW… but it felt good to want to be better. It replaced my indifference with a stronger attitude that stayed with me even when I occasionally went back to damage dealing. It changed the game for me. And not just WoW, but every game. Sometimes, indifference is simply a sign that you need to find a different approach to what you are doing. Or a different purpose.