Monday
Monday was a strange day. I can’t exactly explain why, but since waking up in the morning, I felt hermity. I use the word “hermit-y” to describe the way I feel when I want to stay home, not talk, and just retract. These types of days for me have now become something to watch out for. It’s perfectly ok to need a day for yourself, but in my case, if I let myself retract too much, I have a tendency to stay hidden for days. In this silence, anxiety builds up, and I have to work extra hard to placate it and find the confidence to rejoin the world. It’s one weird aspect of my personality. One I’m really trying to learn how to navigate smoothly.
I had a scheduled music stream that day, and my first thought was to cancel it. Stay in bed, do nothing, stay quiet.
No, Malukah.
I kept my word and streamed. It felt good to prove to myself that it’s possible to work through hermity feelings. They might be there, but I can choose whether or not to listen to them.
Tuesday
I played Doom on Tuesday, and it continued to be hilarious! In the evening, I sat down to start working through the first week of a new class I am taking, Guitar Chords 101 (at Berklee Music Online). I love classes. I love learning. I’m really looking forward to improving on guitar this year!
Wednesday
Wednesday was a singing lesson day. 🙂 Oziel helped me rehearse a song called Boston. It’s the secret song at the end of All of the Above. This, in preparation for the All of the Above concerts on Twitch.
I worked on the Berklee class in the evening and remembered what practicing feels like. Haha! The first assignment took me about an hour and half to complete because I had to play it over and over and over. Worth it, though, because I am starting to see improvements already.
Thursday
We finished Doom!
https://www.twitch.tv/malukah/v/114244855
After the stream was over, I sat down to close up all the Patreon letters I was sending out with a wax seal. It’s my favorite part of sending real letters. hahaha! It’s fuuuun!
After I got back from the post office, I hunkered down to finish the 2nd Berklee assignment that was due on Friday. Since I was going to be at a business course all day Friday, I needed to hand everything in beforehand.
Friday
All day at the business course. It’s the 5th module. We have one more to go. I confess, this module was completely out of my league. Many aspects of financial analysis that I had a difficult time keeping up with. While I couldn’t sit down and analyze something on my own, I was still very shocked to learn how much information you can get about the state of a business from just numbers on a page. I can see why there are entire careers devoted to this. Holy cow.
It’s always hilarious that since each module is taught by a different teacher, we always have to introduce ourselves. Everyone says, “I’m a manager of this, with a masters in Marketing” “I’m head of this branch, specializing in Finance.” and fancy business stuff like that. And I’m like, “I’m an indie singer… Dragonborn.” ahahaha! No, no. I don’t say Dragonborn. But, I wish I could. hahahaha!
Saturday
Half the day was spent at the business course, and the rest of the day I spent preparing for the All of the Above concert. I experimented with singing songs using acoustic and electric guitar to see what would work best.
Thor’s new bed arrived! And it’s smaller than I expected.
Hahahahaha! The catalog said this size was perfect for Labradors, but I guess Thor is a bit bigger than a normal lab. I think I should have bought the larger bed made for Great Danes. Oh, well. He seems to like it, though.
Sunday
Rehearsed All of the Above one last time. Decided to go for an all-acoustic version of the songs.
Thor looked at me impatiently when I finished practicing.
I had mentioned to my parents that I was looking for a lamp post to have as a decoration in my room during the concerts. It turns out, my parents had one they didn’t use! My dad helped modify it so that it could fit my room. It was originally too tall. He removed the bottom section from it and drilled it back into a piece of wood to serve as a base, and that brought it down to 180 cm. Perfect!
Thank you for reading! 😀 Hope you have a great week!
Love,
Mlqu <—- WTF. Malu.
14 Comments
Your recap is so funny 😀 I Love it 😀 Ha 😀
January 17, 2017 at 7:28 pmThank you, Rhinosekk! Nice to see you here! 😀
January 25, 2017 at 2:19 amI know exactly what you mean by hermity. I have the same problem. Pretty tough one isn’t it? But I know you can beat it. And thanks to you, I think I can too. So thank you. I’m visiting my shrink for it and she says that it is just in mind, and just to focus on something else and not think about it. It’s a long lasting process, but it is beatable. And that’s what matters. Damn thing is beatable. I know it is hard, and sometimes I just want to say to hell with it, I give up. But then I listen to your songs and covers (Reignite really lifts me up and Rise from the Dark) and I listen to Taylor Davis play violin. Anyway, the point is you need to find something to keep your thoughts off it. And know that you are not alone in it.
January 18, 2017 at 8:36 amThank you so much for what you wrote. 🙂 I hope we can continue to encourage each other to keep moving forward! 😀 My very best wishes to you in this journey. It’s not an easy one for sure, but like you say, we can fight back! 😀
January 25, 2017 at 2:23 amHi Malukah!
January 18, 2017 at 4:35 pmYes familiar feeling. Sometimes the body is overflowed with energy and I finish work which usually I do for several days in a couple of hours and vice versa, since the morning there is no wish to get up, all work wants to be postponed next day and from it even simple work drags on for several days!
It is pleasant to me as you win its hermity! I admire your willpower!
I too have begun to visit recently lessons of a guitar and a vocal! I hope… no, I dream to sing and play the guitar as you!
Many thanks for a concert of All of the Above! And thanks for everything!
Good luck in your voice and guitar lessons! I hope you are having fun. Thank you for reading, as always!!! 😀
January 25, 2017 at 2:24 amOverall productive and educational week. Good job with the lessons and rehearsals! Especially good job breaking through Monday’s FUD (Fear, Uncertainty and Doubt). We are always our own worst enemies.
Grats on conquering mars and hell, Doom Mistress. More territories for the #ReverbEmpire 🙂 And awwww.. Thor is so darn cute.. everytime I see him.
Keep up the great work. 2017 is looking up.
January 18, 2017 at 10:48 pm🐾 🐺
Thank you, Thesawolf! We definitely often are our own worst enemies… but at least, the more we are aware of that, the more we can talk ourselves out of listening to… ourselves. hahahaha! 😀 And Thor is cute… I agree. Completely. He melts my heart all the time with his cuteness. hahaha
January 25, 2017 at 2:26 amWHAT! how did i miss the second stream! i was siting here refreshing the page over and over again.
January 19, 2017 at 2:50 amI’m sorry your week started so crappy, but in the end, you prevailed! Slowly but surely, you and your empire will conquer all!
January 20, 2017 at 11:53 pmHehe! Thanks Vorador!!! 😀
January 25, 2017 at 2:28 amI don’t think it’s so weird. I believe sensitive souls can feel a bit overwhelmed and need a break. It’s unfortunate it kicked in on a day of an important committment though. I’ve found pushing through the feeling to be rewarding as well. Some of the best moments happen after having an urge to hibernate.
Wow! A busy week of learning,eh? I’m so excited to see you apply what you’ve learned from guitar class!Practice,practice,practice! LOL I used to say that to my daughter when she was learning violin. I think she hated me for it. 😀
The Thor pictures are adorable! He seems to approve of the bed. 😀 He is a big boy indeed.
Have a great weekend!
January 21, 2017 at 12:15 amMiss Gout! 😀 Yes, practice, practice, practice. There is no other way. I’m also looking forward to see if the new chords and voicings I am learning will inspire new music. Right now, I’m at a point where the new chords still make my fings feel all stretched out in weird directions. haha! But, I know this will get better the more I practice. And you are right. It’s worth it to try pushing through hermity feelings. I know I would not have felt good about myself later if I had cancelled and stayed in bed. It’s so nice to see you on the streams, Miss Gout! Take care and I’ll see you soon!
January 25, 2017 at 2:30 amThank You for allowing comments. You are first singer, that I want to know more than only from works. I am 43 years old, so I have heard a lot. I pray for You. I hope we will meet in heaven.
March 12, 2017 at 4:04 am